i just looked up and there it was. another sign. the holidays are upon us. i vow to be calm throughout. i vow to not set foot in a mall (etsy we love you). to buy as much hand-crafted as possible. i vow to finally buy that couch and love seat so that my family will have somewhere to sit on christmas. i promise that every year but, whatever.
i promise to ENJOY.

this stuff is not easy. for me. everywhere i look people are knitting and crocheting and sewing up a storm. i, however, am pathetic at it all.
my fingers do not seem to work properly. and it doesn't make any sense to me. this stitch. that stitch. it just looks like a big wad of yarn.
simple little dish rags. that's all i was after. so. not. simple.
after i make some more attempts to torture this yarn into something...i vow to finally, finally accept the fact that i am not well suited to this kind of thing.
sigh.

i have been on a roll lately, cleaning out bookcases, linen closets, drawers and cupboards. feels really good. i don't know how i accumulate all this stuff...really i don't.
i did a GREAT purge today, going through all my "craft/crap" drawers and really being brutal. felt grand. and look. i unearthed the christmas ribbons and gee-gaws. remember? it's just around the corner?

i am a bad, bad birder. i love to bird watch...but i'm horrible at it. i constantly forget the names of birds i see. or i'll run home so excited about the new, fantastic bird i just saw, only to find out it's a "common" whatever and i've seen it before. lots of times.
no matter. watching those birds makes me happy. i always slow down on my walks to watch them. always notice the rustling in the trees around my house. always notice the seasonal comings and goings.
today was just a regular old day. nothing special. except for the two huge red-shouldered hawks that flew right by me on my daily walk. and the ruby-crowned kinglet that was pecking around in the tree right outside my kitchen.
not too bad for this bad birder.

don't panic. this little guy rolled off a shelf while i was putting the halloween decorations away. is it an omen? i had to run through the mall a couple of weeks ago and the christmas decorations were already up. trees and everything. so....i'm pretty sure christmas is like, tomorrow. and i'm unprepared. and totally without inspiration.
i will not panic. something will come to me. and hopefully not on december 23. i'll keep you posted...............